Contrast– the state of being strikingly different from something else, typically something in juxtaposition or close association.
This is my opinion base on my experience as a hobbyist.
Film photography is a great medium to learn and make photographs. It makes you “mindful” of what you take. The cost per shot is evident, you only have 36 shots. I see a cat licking his bum and I raise my camera to compose then think “is this shot gonna be worth my 10php?” usually the answer would be no. That would raise my keepers from 1 per roll to at least 6 per roll. Which is good by my standards (very low standards!). Shooting is a bliss. I have no expectation on myself. I just have to walk and observe. Observe the light, the shadows, patterns, frames, human faces, gestures, emotions and all the other factors. You’re in the “flow” you are mindful, all your worries are gone. You see how the world is beautiful even in the dirty streets of Manila you’ll be amazed of the depth of beauty.
“TIBI CORDI TUO IMMACULATO CONCREDIMUS NOS AC CONSECRAMUS”.
Translated to. “To thy Immaculate Heart, entrust us and consecrate us”
Minolta CLE + M-Rokkor 40mm f2+ Kodak Tri-x @1600
Film cameras are cheap compared to the latest cameras today. This is a double edge sword for me. It’s great to try and shoot with a different camera but I usually fall to victim to HEDONIC ADAPTATION. I know deep down that I’ll only be using a single camera and I was content with it. I have been using my Nikon F3 for a year and never wanted more. But when I saw a bargain (Olympus XA2, Canonet QL17, Nikon L35AF and a Olympus trip 35 for a 100usd), I pulled the trigger on it. I have been reading extensively on film cameras to know that all of them are great cameras. They arrived the next day and all of them are in great condition. I quickly loaded the Oly XA2 shot a roll (still haven’t develop this) and sold it for a profit. I did the same with the other 3, I shot with them for awhile, get bored, complaint about this or that, and then sold it. I did make a little bit of money and I did enjoy shooting and tinkering with a new camera but this started an unhealthy habit. I would always check sites for various reviews be update for new reviews on sleeper cameras ( selling cheap now and prices would usually go up after the review), with the perfect excuse of I’m investing on them and could sell them easily. Various cameras would go thru my hands from Om-1, Om2n, to a Rollei 35 SE but would always return to the Minolta CLE, for me it’s a lighter Nikon F3 ( Black, aperture priority and dependable). I know that this is all I need and more but what the heck am I looking, reading a review and fantasizing about a Leica M? Which I can’t afford. GAS ( Gear Acquisition Syndrome) again, I thought I have dealt with it before. But making a little money gives you a leeway, an excuse to start GASing all over again. So why am I bitching about it, if I enjoy shooting different cameras and make a little money in the end. What’s wrong with that? Because it’s making me unhappy. I check ebay and other sites on a regular basis ( Every chance a get, might be every 5mins or every 30mins). I have this fear of missing out (FOMO), That I might miss out on a great deal/camera. I black canon 7 for 100 bucks? a black Contax G1 with a 45mm? I NEED THOSE! I was in constant state of fear and desire that I was checking the internet more often than shooting.
- Sell every camera I don’t use. ( They’re posted for sale right now)
- Never visit or read a review about a camera. Don’t add fuel to fire.
- Never visit the sales pages, ebay or where ever I get them.
- Make myself accountable. (Thus here I am bitching to you guys)
I am still wanting and lusting for that Leica M, Contax G1, G2 or T2 but when I catch myself wanting. I just tell myself that 1. You cannot afford them 2. You got all that you need to create a great photo and to enjoy taking pictures.
Thank you for hearing me rant.
Minolta CLE + M-Rokkor 40mm f2+ Kodak Tri-x @1600.
I found this roll a while back not knowing what’s in it, what camera did I shoot with it and importantly what iso I used. Took me a few week to decide that having it developed a little longer would be the safest.
So welcome back to Bangkok! And welcome to Chao Mae Tuptim shrine A.K.A the Penis Shrine.
The caretaker told us that they just removed half of the penises in the shrine as they were getting a bit crowded. People having fertility issue would leave behind a phallic candle or idol to make their wish come true. It is said that if you touched the phallus it would bring good luck and fertility. I did touched some of the phallus (no homo) hoping it would bring us luck. You can find elephant figures, creepy doll dresses ( I don’t know what they are for) and crammed to every crook and cranny are penises!
See what I mean by creepy. This just gives me the heebeegeebees!
This is my favorite shot I got from the shrine. I haven’t read yet “The Subtle Art of Not Giving a F*ck by Mark Manson” But this reminds me of that book. I like how the penis is just proudly standing there.
What I love most in Thailand is the ambience of calm and unrushedness of the people. Look at him just chilling by the fountain even removing the shoes to be comfortable. Also Bangkok feels more spacious than Manila which is very very crowded.
Up next is the Banyan Tree sky bar. Being on a tight budget and just wanting to sightsee we just ordered drinks thankfully there’s free nuts. And what a great view it offered. I’m really regretting only bringing my 50mm to this trip.
Do me a favor and be smarter than me when you visit this place. See those railings? A great place to mount a gorrila pod and bring a wide angle lens or maybe a fish eye. Time it just right for sunset shots then order a few more drinks til it’s dark and the night light are on and get a great night shot of Bangkok. And not a plain boring shot like I did:
I think this is the phallus’s making. When the waiter brought our drinks he accidentally spilled one of the glass on our table. Lucky none of us got wet with it. As compensation they gave us another round for free and waived our bill. I hope that doesn’t come out of our waiters salary. Thank you Penis shrine I know that was because of you.
This would be the face of someone spending the last night in Bangkok eating like crazy Due to the saved money from Banyan Tree we had enough for a buffet. Thus the evil palm rubbing.
Thank you for all the memories and the good time Bangkok! Maybe Chang Mai next time.
Nothing brings you back to Manila more than someone in a diaper playing ball on a busy road.
Just hold on. We can slowly work together for a better future. By starting with ourselves. Let’s be the best possible version of ourself. And as always love and take the most meaningful photos to you.
Thank you for reading!
When I started using film I had this idea/dream that every photos I would take would be the “SHIT”. Oh how right was I when the first roll got developed and printed. 35 shots of crap (under, overexposed and out of focused shots) and 1 decent photo. I blamed everything less but me. Maybe the camera is broken it’s old, maybe the meter is fried, maybe my film stock wasn’t handled well being developed yeah that’s it bad developing. But deep down I know it was my fault. So I did what any normal person would do before running a film thru a new camera: Read the manual. Ha! so it’s center weighted metering, that’s good to know.
Next thing I did was browse through the works of Josef Koudelka and learn from him. Ofcourse I admired Henri Cartier-Bresson, Robert Capa, Robert Frank and most of the greats but it’s with Josef Koudelka’s work I resonated with.
Great work takes time. Koudelka took around 5000 photos of the Prague 1968 invasion but used only a fraction of it. Only later when “Invasion 68:Prague” that other photos would be used, it featured 250 awe inducing photos most of them published for the first time. That’s 250 out 5000 photos! He had a tight body of work spanning all the years he was taking picture but the quality of it was absurd. So be patient and enjoy the learning process.
After shifting to film my compulsive behavior to shot 10 or more photo of the same thing completely disappeared and was replaced by extreme skimping. 1shot per 1 subject that’s all I gave myself. Only after looking at Koudelka’s contact sheet did I realized that if you feel there’s a “Shot”, you can work the scene out. Compose, recompose and shoot. Don’t skimp. Which made me think of this quote:
” In the end you only regret the the things you didn’t do”
Let’s rephrase this
” In the end you only regret the photos you didn’t take”
My favorite photo. Took me a bit of experimentation but I got it. When life seem dark always look to the light. I always look to you my light. I am grateful having you. Thank you and thanks for reading!
Perfect weather for a roll of Ektar.
Entrance to the Grand Palace. The security is tight! Look at all those guns.
The Garuda and Naga. Garugas are like harpies, half man and half bird but of the opposite sex. He’s the steed of Lord Vishnu or something like that. The snake he’s ripping apart is the “Naga”. I don’t know which of them started this family fued as they’re “cousins” but it’s always ends with the Garuda winning. (kinda like the eagle eating the snake)
We enjoyed this fountain at first because the pigeons have been “pavloved” not be scared of humans and see them as vending machine of corns. Then a man gave us small packets of corn.
“How much?” we ask.
“It’s okay. It’s okay.” He said. Woah. This place is really great, people are very friendly and giving you free stuff. If only Philippines can step up it’s game then maybe the tourism would increase. Blah blah..
So we continued to play and feed the pigeons. After depleting our corn supply we decided to leave.
“Thank you for the corn.” I said or something like that.
“300 bhat. 100 bhat each packet. YOU PAY.” Kinda lost my temper here. We conceded to pay 100 bhat and decided to leave him. So please learn from our mistake. Visit but be wary of this kind of trick.
Elephant statue at the entrance of the Phra Thinang Chakri Maha Prasat.
Thotsakhirithon (Yaksha) is a kind of nature spirit that protects and guard treasures. It’s no wonder they’re placed in the entrance of the Wat Phra Kaew. It’s amazing to see the parallel between Thailand and Japan due to their culture and religion . Yasha in Japanese.
I think she’ll kill me if she sees this. Candid for her devouring a delicious local banana crepe.
This is the last of the Bangkok in Film. I really miss this place already. I miss the laid back atmosphere where most of the people don’t seem to be in a hurry. The people are very polite and would do everything to help you. Can’t wait to be back.
Thank you for reading!
Thailand was the first country I’ve been to except Philippines. Everybody should visit there. The people are very kind and will try their very best to understand your hand gestures. It’s relatively clean and safe compared to Philippines. We were there for less than a week and arrived on a sunday. This means that we have to visit and shop on Chatuchak weekend market on our first day. I quickly loaded my Nikon F3 with Ektar ( at-least that was the box of film I was holding but the film inside was the Fujicolor Superia 1600! I was gonna save this for some night time shooting at Khao san road. It was a mix up of different box and film due to the inspection in the airport. Luckily I realized that it was the superia before closing the back. Giving me a chance to rate it at 1600).
Chatuchak market is so big that it will take you the whole day to fully explore it. I would suggest you visit it on your last day so you can spend all your remaining money here. The food is amazing and the trinkets are cheap!
She’s been arranging and rearranging her cats for quite sometime giving me a chance to snap this.
Superia 1600 giving a great rendition of skin tones.
Superia 1600 actually is okay. If you need a high iso colored film I’d recommend this being not as pricey as other high iso film and is able to deliver great photo. Yes it’s a bit grainy but it’s normal at 1600. The Superia 1600 is definitely a must try!
Thanks for reading.
Well I have recently been “G.A.Sing” hard. I have been browsing the net looking for reviews, photos taken with the camera (Om4 Ti) and just plain day dreaming of the shots I’ll take with it, for the better part of a week!
We humans are unhappy because we’re insatiable. An ultra-marathoner of the “Hedonic treadmill”. We get what we desire let’s say (in my case) the Olympus Om2n with a 24mm 2.8 and less than a week you adapt to them and the dissatisfaction returns. Maybe this time it’s a Om 50mm f1.2 lens that would do the trick or the Om4 ti. Let’s not stop there maybe the harder to find Om3 would get my itch scratched.
Enough is enough. When lusting for a piece of equipment is taking more time than the actual creation, it becomes unhealthy for me. I can read a review plenty of times and still read it some more (http://www.35mmc.com/12/09/2016/olympus-om4ti/ and http://camerajunky.net/2012/06/19/olympus-om-4-ti-black/).
My go to cure for G.A.S:
- Negative visualization– Imagine how you’ll feel if you lost your go to camera now. Vividly imagine that your camera got stolen on that shady street you were walking by. This is very effective for me, reminds me how much I wanted my camera before I had it and how much I’ll miss it if I lose it. Then I find myself stroking the old beater camera with care and looking at it with love.
- 1 Month rule- I use this one with almost every possible buy. The rule is simple if I want to buy something that’s gonna cost more than 1,000 php or around 20 usd I write it on my notebook with the starting date (ex. Om4ti- Feb26, 2017). So if after 30days I still want to buy the Om4ti I’ll pull the trigger on it (which is good cause usually in 30 days time someone already bought it first!).
- Reread the reviews of your camera- Luckily for me Nikon F3 has a ton of great review in the web. This somehow makes me feel that the camera i’m already using is more than enough. If I want to create a better photo It’s me who’s got to improve and not the equipment.
These 3 steps helped me solve my G.A.S for a while i’m sure it’ll pop out sooner or later. I always say to myself that great photos have been taken with less (older cameras), so it’s not the equipment that make a photo but the one behind the camera.
If you’re still G.A.Sing after doing this 3 steps. I suggest you go here: http://erickimphotography.com/blog/2012/03/04/10-tips-on-how-to-cure-yourself-of-gas-gear-acquisition-syndrome/
Nikon F3 50mm 1.4/ Kodak Portra 400
As always thank you for reading and I hope this helps!
I think the difference between digital and film for me is the feel of the actual analogue camera. Every morning I always gravitate towards my F3 even it would be cheaper for me and a lot healthier for my back to carry my D7000 (feels lighter). Somehow the F3 rewired my brain I get a dopamine rush every time I cock the film advance (buttery smooth!) and pressing the shutter (
that shutter sound it’s so good it kinda makes me moist), yes the shutter is loud ( I was trying to be stealthy shooting in a church, not with a mass going mind you, I swear that at least 4 person looked at me hearing the sound of the shutter) but it just sound so right. It doesn’t matter what camera you use as long as you use it and that’s what I love about the F3 it makes you want to use it. Just handling it is a pleasure and carrying it is kinda stealthy with the normal black one. So whatever camera makes you want to carry it that’s the one for you. Stop looking at the review of that Om4 ti. Stop mental masturbating about that om 50mm 1.2 and use what you have Dan. That’s all you need.
Kodak Gold. I’m on the fence with this one some shots I definitely love, some makes me wanna puke. The color is not that consistent (most likely user error and not the films fault). But it’s kinda cheap so that’s a big plus for a broke ass person like me.
Light against Dark
I always slowly creep away from whoever buys the giant black candle, It’s for peace of conscience. I can only imagine what they did to deserve have to buy 3 or 4 of that.
My 2nd favorite of this roll. That impish face is priceless!
As you can see I do take a lot of photos of things and strangers but I try to take more photos of love ones. Personal photos are the one that’s always infused with emotions and meaning for me so I do try to take more. Life is fickle you never know how long we have remaining so make the most of it connect, listen and be present to the one you love.
My favorite of the roll. I can’t put my finger on why I love this picture so much even the color have a cyan cast on it. I just want to make a large of print of this and hang it near my desk.
- Use what you have Dan. You don’t need a Olympus Om4ti with 50mm 1.2 to make a decent photo.
- Take more photos of your family and love ones.
Thanks for reading!
Welcome to the nitty and grainy life here in the Philippines.Enjoy!
Manila is a wondrous place. Full of life. Literally full of people. Most are nice and some are a little desperate but the one who have it the worse are the children, the street children. Children who never had a home. They aren’t exactly orphans as they do have parents. Some of the parents are good people but are really having it hard. Some the bad parents who use their children to make money. Make money? but how you might ask. There a lot of ways actually from manual labor, as a street vendors, begging for food and money to the bad one like stealing smart phones, moneys and etc. You see being a child makes them immune to going to prison so the bad parent use them to steal thing and if they get caught, being a minor ( sometimes as young as 5years old) get away scot-free.
Having to grow up in this environment they become hard and the cycle is never broken. Most of these kids will be parents before they reach 20years old. So the cycle continues…
The problem they always face is hunger. True hunger the way we will never ever experience. It’ll be there constant friend from waking to sleeping. And when you see a kid with a empty plastic inflating and deflating around the nose ( Like what asthma patient do with paper bag) you might wonder what they’re doing. The plastic bag is actually laced with Rugby (a type of contact cement), the solvent is used to alleviate their hunger.
Now that you got your fix. We need a place to crash. Well? anywhere is game as long as you won’t disturb the people passing by and the authorities won’t care. Grab the box fold it and voilà! bed fit for a king. Be it in the side walk, under the tree, up the tree and anywhere in between.
By now I’m sure you’re asking “What are you trying to say Dan?”.
That this is a reminder for me (and it could be a reminder for you also if you want to) to appreciate what I have (what you have). Appreciate the childhood I got, the education, my parents, and even the fact that I have a bed and I have food to eat when I’m hungry. So what if my caramel macchiato double shot espresso upside down wasn’t upside down. So what if I’m using a 30 year old camera and not the bestest and latest. So what if someone rudely cut you in the road. Please don’t let the little things destroy the gift you’re given. Enjoy the present. For young and old, we all have the same to lose.
Appreciate and be present to your family and love ones. Really listen to them.
The ones I love.
She hated this photo. But I loved it cause it captures the playfulness in her eyes.
Kawo. Thankfully he’s okay now. 🙂
Thank you for listening to my rant. And remember “Always Forward!”
If any of you guys ever drift here to the Philippines. I strongly suggest you go here.
Nagsasa Cove, Zambales
It’s usually visited by hikers and they spend the night camping here. The beach is pristine and clear. Very peaceful, and an absolute must for those need a time out to visit. All the photos are taken with Kodak Ektar. I love how this film captured the essences of the place. Blue, azure blue, green, Brown and the almost white sand. Enjoy!
The keepers hut. Guess who’s living the dream, huh. I really like the colors of Ektar here.
Ektar overexposed. Dreamy feel.
Got to get those hands dirty to get to the peak.
Tact sharp! I hope they won’t discontinue this film.
I’m sexy and I know it. Joke.
Both long exposures. But the last one took more than a minute. I don’t exactly know how long, but i’m surprise to get this one.
Path to Happiness. My favorite of the roll. 🙂
I really love this F3. It’s been the only camera I lugged around everywhere. Aperture priority is just perfect for me and metering is always spot on. The viewfinder is large and clear. It make you focus and just think about the moment your gonna capture and after you snapped it you continue to enjoy the moment, no chimping, no bitching that you didn’t get the photo you like. Film really teaches you to be patient. So please all of you who are GAS’ing for the new Leica M10 (God know I did for a while) or that new lens, remember great photos have been made with an older and not that awesome camera, it’s about you enjoying and learning the craft. I still use my worse for wear D7000 but film photography helped me to minimize chimping and be conscious what to waste my film on and the composition of it. This is more of me telling myself not to GAS.
See you guys next week!
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